Obsession...
The root of self destructive behaviour.
Identify it. Let it be.
Each of us have some kind of obsession. It's a rewarding journey from obsession to slavery to suffering to mastering over yourself. It starts with the obsession. To know it's power and to completely sucumb to it... To let your knees buckle and to fall flat...
To lay flat...
It may seem like eternity. It may seem impossible to sit up again. But it will happen. Just like everything else happened. First you will not know what it is that made you fall. Slowly you will become aware of a tendency in you that seems a bit extreme. It takes sometime for the realization of obsession clearly. It takes much longer for acceptance. Till then its a losing battle against the obsession battling on and off. This is the phase which seems most like eternity and you completely want to give up, so many times, over and over again. Then you give up fighting all together. You lay flat and look at our obsession straight at its face. You start to realise you cant fight it. You just got to let it be. That's the start of the recovery.
Even when you are acting obsessively you start becoming aware of the obsessive self. You have created a space between yourself and this 'obsessive self'. With time this space becomes so well defined and you are aware of it at all times, so that your identification with your obsession falls off. You start being able to perceive everything differently, to see things apart from the element of obsession in your eyes. This weakens it. Its an onward journey of recovery from there and soon you look back surprised and realize you have left it long behind.
This may be a story lasting a lifetime. Or it needn't be.
Whatever it is, a journey of healing from our weaknesses strengthens us in a way that we may never fall back to our previous ways ever again, under any circumstance. That is what is successful ageing for me. That kind of ageing would make me happy and proud, not ashamed, not leaving me wistfully longing for a younger age.
The root of self destructive behaviour.
Identify it. Let it be.
Each of us have some kind of obsession. It's a rewarding journey from obsession to slavery to suffering to mastering over yourself. It starts with the obsession. To know it's power and to completely sucumb to it... To let your knees buckle and to fall flat...
To lay flat...
It may seem like eternity. It may seem impossible to sit up again. But it will happen. Just like everything else happened. First you will not know what it is that made you fall. Slowly you will become aware of a tendency in you that seems a bit extreme. It takes sometime for the realization of obsession clearly. It takes much longer for acceptance. Till then its a losing battle against the obsession battling on and off. This is the phase which seems most like eternity and you completely want to give up, so many times, over and over again. Then you give up fighting all together. You lay flat and look at our obsession straight at its face. You start to realise you cant fight it. You just got to let it be. That's the start of the recovery.
Even when you are acting obsessively you start becoming aware of the obsessive self. You have created a space between yourself and this 'obsessive self'. With time this space becomes so well defined and you are aware of it at all times, so that your identification with your obsession falls off. You start being able to perceive everything differently, to see things apart from the element of obsession in your eyes. This weakens it. Its an onward journey of recovery from there and soon you look back surprised and realize you have left it long behind.
This may be a story lasting a lifetime. Or it needn't be.
Whatever it is, a journey of healing from our weaknesses strengthens us in a way that we may never fall back to our previous ways ever again, under any circumstance. That is what is successful ageing for me. That kind of ageing would make me happy and proud, not ashamed, not leaving me wistfully longing for a younger age.
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